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[18 Aug 2005|12:01am]
[ mood | pessimistic ]

well. update time.

firstly, the move. goldleaf called and said i could move in a few days early, so naturally i gladly took up the offer. so friday i took a few things over to my new crib, and my parents (thank god for them...i love them so much) helped me move some stuff friday night when i was at work. got up saturday morning...early...and we moved the rest in. luckily, it was two days early, so there were very few people we had to fight through. and thank god i still had the internet and cable, or else i would have gone insane.

the apartment itself kicks a$$. its huge...a lot bigger than i was expecting, considering i got my bed (in all its king size glory), old computer desk, and dresser with long mirror in...in addition to my original desk from last year and futon. its nice, but i still need to finish putting some stuff away...yeah im behind so sue me. and good lord i am not an interior decorator, so my walls are still blank.

but enough about that. today marks august 17th...well technically since its past midnight it was yesterday. but since my memory is so freakin spectacular (a blessing and curse to be sure), i can cleary remember that a year ago marked our first date. yes. thats mine and cali's first date. we met at noodles and company for dinner. oh yeah...i still can remember her coming in to ae (this was back when they had me doing freight) to use her discount for the last time. its crazy...sad, pathetic, sweet, pick your adjective depending on your point of view....that i still can remember all this.

and since im in my nostolgic mode lately, im going on a ramble. a year ago tomorrow (the 18th) was her birthday. and obviously, that would mean that tomorrow is her 20th birthday. well thats just freakin spectacular. i remember i called during the afternoon to wish her happy birthday. and she was thrilled with that. and thats also the night i talked to her online for the first time. well no, that could have been the 17th, but at the time i didnt really like her that much (who really cares in all honesty). then late on the 18th she left for mexico with teddi.

so the point of this? none, really. just to prove how sad my life is. i dont really know whats sadder....that i can remember all this well or that im still hung up on her. its really quite karmic when you think about it....how much i didnt really like her to begin with and how much pain ive sufferred the past few months. what goes around comes around, and i accept this. but it just sucks. i called her yesterday when she was at work during the afternoon and left a happy birthday message. i dunno, i guess a part of me thought she would call me back. maybe wed strike up a conversation, and wed at least start to talk again.

but im ok. i really am. ill always love the time we spent together. looking back, last year at this time was really the greatest month of my life. i guess i just didnt want to open up my heart and get hurt again. but she convinced me it would be ok...and thank god she did. because i had the greatest year of my entire life. i loved, i learned, and i lost. and while the pain is great, what i experienced felt even greater.

so consider this my farewell. in a way, i will always love her. she'll always be my soulmate, and even though we're not together i know somehow i will guard her and protect her. we went through so much, and no matter what she wants to think or feel, you cannot deny our past. we were so close, and nobody can take that away from us. it is fairly certain to me that we will never really talk like we used to, but that is ok. i will always love and never forget what we had. we were not perfect...neither she nor i. but i choose to remember our great times. we had so many of them, they overshadow whatever small fights we had. i will always love cali, and no matter what happens to us, nothing can change that.

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wheeeew [13 Jul 2005|08:52pm]
[ mood | content ]

so. chris is back. and he will promise to *try* to update this more frequently. it's been too long.


well. well well well. where to begin? so lets just say i do believe i am an asshole. for a variety of reasons.

lets start off with cali. it has been three months since we broke up, and lets face it, i dont think we are handling it very well. i know i didn't at first. and id like to believe she isn't taking it very well either. it took a long time to get over all the complicated remains that was our relationship. things just were weird. we still loved each other very much. and still do. we always do. its not like we had a big falling out or one thing suddenly did us in. it was just a combination of things. and quite honestly, it took me by real surprise. i took everything for granted.

essentially, i am a romantic at heart. i will always believe people are good at heart. and i have always thought that no matter what, as long as two people are in love, thats really all they need to make it in the world and survive. i still believe that with everything i have inside of me. but thats where we went wrong: cali doesnt think like that. the distance thing really crept up inside of her. and she couldnt take it anymore. she was so convinced (with the help of the devil jenine, btw) that she shouldnt be feeling this deep this early in her life that she felt she needed a break from us. which was fine, and i totally respect that.

and this tormented me for a long while. and i saw her once about six weeks after we broke up for about ten minutes. it was really akward. i remember at the time there was so many things i wanted to say, but not a whole lot came out. i missed her and for the first time since we broke up, i cried that night. i remember coming home and turning on the tv and american idol (which i NEVER watch) was on. rascal flats "god blessed the broken road" - one of our songs - was playing. and for the first time, the tears came. and i couldn't really stop them all night. for the first time, i felt weak and powerless. it was probably my lowest point.

but since then time has started to heal me. its helped ive been out and active on the weekend...which effectively takes my mind off things. i've had nights with kara, hailey, karla, time, kelli, cody, julie, and the list goes on. every time i went out it was something different, running into someone else i knew. and it was nice to keep busy, because it all reminded me that life does indeed go on, no matter how used the cliche is. but i was still kind of empty inside, and i knew only time could fix that. i took her off aim, stopped calling her, and tried to stay away. i was tired of trying to talk about things and our problems and having her not be able to handle it saying "i can talk about this right now." i needed to move on, and while i knew it was a slow process, i was on my way. i shifted from angry to bitter to depressed to lonely to better to worse and everything in between, sometimes in a matter of minutes. i would be fine, when all of a sudden a certain memory would come into my mind and i would loose it.

but time went on, and she still talked to me about once a week or so. the conversations weren't really deep or anything, just the simple and obligitory salutations. but it was still nice to hear her voice every now and then.

my point? i guess today i found my point. her good friend teddi's birthday was yesterday, and i knew that. she had told me she was coming down to skydive with teddi carly and karla (yes theres a story to her too but that was 6 weeks ago and its a dead horse...more on this later if you want), so i knew she was in town yesterday. i tried not to think about it, but it was always in the back of my mind that she would be miles away from me. but i wasnt really surprised i didnt get a phone call.

so this morning i worked ae 8-12:30, which was odd because a shift never ends at 12:30. so i was ringing a customer up at exactly 12:30, ready to go home and nap like i deserved to. i look up and see someone else in line. i do a double take, and (this story would be crappy if it wasnt her) cali was looking at me with that smile i once fell in love with. for the first few seconds i was in shock, not knowing if i should hug her or act happy or what i was supposed to do. so i clock out and we say hey blah blah blah how are you doing. after the standard "i'm doin ok i guess and you? im doin good. good" conversation i walk with her to get coffee. and she says she was on her way back to g.b. and to my surprise, i wasnt upset. i secretly didnt want her to stay an extra hour to hang out with me. i felt more of an auro of closure than anything, which was something i desperately needed in my life and this situation. i felt surprising little of the feelings that were once so strong. and yes, of course part of me missed holding her and talking to her every day. but that will always linger; it is the way first loves work. but i realized that at one time things were great with us, but that time has passed us by. we are different and doing our different things. i was ok with the way everything was. and it takes time, but my heart is healing and almost there. you never know what surprises life has in store daily for you, but all i can say is be prepared for the worst, that way the best surprises will be that much sweeter. and the best will certainly come from nowhere.

part 2 tomorrow, which is where things get really interesting. and where you will switch your opions of me from wise philosopher to a$$hole going after an almost-27-year old freakin teacher.


...yeah, the stories i will tell in the remaining days are that interesting. and i have many to tell from earlier this summer. stay tuned. of course thats if anyone was tuned in the first place anymore.


*learning to fly*

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[04 May 2005|07:13am]
[ mood | sick ]

So I figured Id update this, although no one reads it so it will become my own personal bitch session. a few random quick hitters:

*ive reached a point where nothing surprises me. and i do mean nothing.there was a time when cali and i were the perfect couple. now i even took her off my buddy list because i cant stand checking her away message every five seconds. i just dont get her. she says she wants this and that but loves me as much as she did. well that's all b*llshit. either she stopped loving me the way she did or she wants to hoe around, and i dont think it is the latter. she just frustrates me so much.....make up your god damn mind woman. i want to say ive just stopped caring, but i know that would be a lie. but im just sick of waiting around for her...its not fair to me. i need to move on, but its hard when she tells me not to. she just needs to figure things out and soon, becuase im getting fed up. its just so damn frustrating. i just want to shake her and figure out what the fuck is going on inside her head. i know shes not that dumb, but sometimes i just really wonder...

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[01 Feb 2005|09:11pm]
[ mood | angry ]

so chris needs to vent. b*tch. moan. complain. whatever you want to call it. i deserve to...i've been getting screwed lately.

let me refresh...

so long story very short *im not gonna get into the details cuz a)no one is reading this b)it would bore you and c)i think i might save that for another entry* i fell for cali. hard. and she fell for me. maybe even harder. things were perfect. in love. can't live without each other.

but now im getting a little agitated.

i guess i just feel like i'm getting a little taken for granted. i mean i do everything for this girl...anything she asks me to i do it, which is fine. just sometimes i think she doesn't realize how great i am to her and has just taken it for granted the past few months. i know she loves me and appreciates it, it's just really frustrating all the time when i do so much for her. but i never minded it, because she would do stuff for me too. and she really loved me.

now i know she still loves me that much....i don't think that's changed (unless im wrong and completely missed the boat). yet the past few days a few things have really irritated me. three things to be exact
*but i'm only naming two cuz i am not telling the final one...which is ultimately what angered me the most*

1)so since she's two hours away, we had our scedules and plans all set up, which was fine. i would go see her two weeks into the school semester, which was cool with me. so i requested the days off, and i went (which was this past weekend). since my 21 birthday is feb 9 (a wednestday) i wasn't expecting to see her on it since it was in the middle of the week. not a big deal. we had planned that she would come down the 10th (thursday) and stay that weekend to celebrate my birthday and do a little valentines thing (although we would really celebrate it the 18th, our anniversary, cuz she told me to come up to g.b. that weekend too.) not a problem. so i get there thursday, and things are peachy. then sunday she is talking to her friends from stoughton. so they want to go on a weekend to wild rose (her family's cabin on a lake out in guam), which is totally fine. and she's talking to her friends on the phone and she's like "yeah if that's when everyone can go then i can do it the weekend of the 11th" while im on the couch just watching her in disbelief. i mean seriously. so she makes a couple more calls and appears to have plans set to go to wild rose the 11th. im just like 'wtf?' so she doesn't even know what is bothering me. i'm finally just like "so you're backing out of coming down the 10th?? a day after my 21st-freaking-birthday??" she's all like "yeah im so sorry hunny but it's the only day they could do it. Oh. ok. so i guess it's ok to ditch me then as long as her friends are happy. just freakin awesome. im seriously just in shock and disbelief. then she brings out the "well i wanted to come down and surprise you on your birthday the 9th and not tell you but i didn't know how to fit it in your schedule." yeah. really. nice backtracking b.s. job cali. just say: sorry but im going to wild rose that weekend. dont try to cover it up. so now she's all like "well ill come down the 9th." um cali? i have class from 2:30-6:30 that night. and you have class at 8 a.m. on thursday. "ok then. i'll come down tuesday night and eat lunch with you on your birthday. super idea cali, really. even better. oh wait. you have class till 9 p.m. tuesdays. "that's ok. i'll get there at about 11 or midnight." really cali? really? you would do that for me??? my i feel priveleged.
so let me get this straight: you backed out of a weekend YOU had planned for over a month. after you told me to request the days off from work. a DAY AFTER my 21st birthday. and you seriously act like it's no big deal? well that's a super job hunny. and you know what? that's not even the worst part. now that really didn't bother me *that* much...i know she's close to her girls from stoughton and they rarely hang out during the school year---i totally understand that. it gets worse. so i am with her in her room and i see a post it note of a list of names. it had her friends from stoughton.....AND....friends from school, mostly the dudes she goes to BWW every week and drinks with on the weekends. im like what's that? she's all like "who's going to wild rose."

seriously? you've got to be freaking kidding me, right?? i mean come on. a) i get ditched....after you planned this out and told me to request the days off. b) i get ditched *NOT* only for her friends from stoughton...but for her girl AND guy friends from school? so basically i get ditched the day after my birthday for one big kegger. yeah. awesome.

yeah. this bugs me. still. real bad. the more i think about it, the more it upsets me.

now, the biggie:
2) so she was planning on living with angie, her roomate. ok. fine. awesome. angies' cool. then friday angie backs out saying she might live with her dad. ok. yeah that sucks, but dont stress yet cali. you have time. so sunday she's bawling her eyes out to me...on my last night in green bay. i mean OH MY GOD. i understand she might have to live with guys. now i wouldn't be happy about it, but i would understand. plus it helps that they were ugly.

so this monring she tells me angie changed her mind and wants to live with cali, where cali proceeded to tell her no. now here's the doozy: she calls me and says "there's one problem...the apartments are all two bedroom not anything bigger like a four." so i'm just like YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING. im seriously like "wtf?" my girlfriend is going to be living with a FUCKING DUDE next semester. and im majorly upset about it.

so yes. not in a good mood.

even better news: i have an exam tomorrow.

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[21 Sep 2004|10:35pm]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

so just when i think my life is like a soap opera, things get weirder. im telling you people, every day it's something else. they need to put a camera on me and just watch it unfold. ok maybe not that drastic, but you get the idea.

oh, i got my nalgene bottle today with a cool badger on it. red. it's awesome dude.

im soooo upset tonight!! after almost 90 days, big brother 5 ended tonight. i can remember the premiere night (july 5, atually the night my uncle died.) every tues, thurs, and sat i would either sit my ass down or tape it. i never missed it. now i gotta endure a looong time until a new one premieres. I WANNA BE ON BB6!!

so about this life thingy. so last night i was about to update this thing just to get off writing my paper, even though i didn't really have much to say.

then, all of a sudden i get an im. it was none other than jessica bernal (j.b.). yes ladies and gentelmen, the bisexual. at first it was the usual "how are you doing" fake polite junk, then all of a sudden things get weird. i don't remember how it came up, but we started talking about what happened. and about how we NEVER see each other or talk. and why things are really awkard between us. i mean it was a long and actually deep conversation. it was really nice to get things out in the open and we feel soo much better. i figure that was that. we were like "we'll definately hang out" but i assumed it was just a fake/courtesy/polite smalltalk. so then she talks to me again today, and is like "what are you doing after class. meet me at starbucks." at first i was like "um, ok" but i went. and we talked for a long time like things hadn't changed at all. WTF is wrong with me. i know well never have a "relationship" again really, but i don't know what power this girl has. for chrissakes she's BISEXUAL. c'mon chris, don't let a chick do this to you. i CAN'T let this happen again, can i?

the convo:
bernaly39: i would kill for a peanutbutter sandwich...but i dont have peanutbutter....or bread for that matter...or anything besides ketchup and 2 cans of beans
bernaly39 returned at 12:03:23 AM.
ColoradoBadger4: omg guess what???
bernaly39: what?
ColoradoBadger4: speak of the devil
ColoradoBadger4: guess what i recently purchased??
bernaly39: what??
ColoradoBadger4: peanut butter in a SQUEEZE. skippy you just squeeze onto bread. and i squeeze in my mouth.
bernaly39: omg that sounds SO good right now
ColoradoBadger4: holy crap it's amazing. midnight snack? perfect. im the frickin MAN!
ColoradoBadger4: and i made a pancake yesterday!
bernaly39: a pancake...like one?
bernaly39: did you put peanutbutter on the pancake?
bernaly39: :-D
ColoradoBadger4: not just one. a big, fluffy, and doughy one. check it out. i even took a picture. :-). because you know i can't cook
ColoradoBadger4: i put cool whip on it
ColoradoBadger4 wants to directly connect.
bernaly39 is now directly connected.
bernaly39: doughy pancakes are the best...a little goo in the middle
bernaly39: hmmmm
ColoradoBadger4:
bernaly39: damn...that is one big ass pancake
ColoradoBadger4: strawberry cool whip on that and i was a happy man
ColoradoBadger4: i know what i doin.
bernaly39: apperently
ColoradoBadger4: hey jessica
bernaly39: yeeessss
ColoradoBadger4: why the fuck don't you ever talk to me anymore?
ColoradoBadger4: :-D
bernaly39: hey ya shit...YOOUUUU never talk to MMMEEEEE
ColoradoBadger4: excuuuse me? i talk to you all the time.
ColoradoBadger4: YOU never talk to ME miss "im too good to talk to chris"
ColoradoBadger4: like when you run away when i was trying to talk to you at the eagle
bernaly39: whatever mr. "ill go hide and do stock all day"
bernaly39: =-Oi never run away!!!
ColoradoBadger4: u ran away. chicken.
bernaly39: when????
ColoradoBadger4: that saturday! i tried to go talk to you but you went and "folded denim"
bernaly39: saturday you did NOT try to talk to me....i talked to you about you lookin like a tomato and what not (are you still burned?)...and then i went to go fold denim b/c i had 5 min left in my shift and i felt lame standing behind the cash reg.
bernaly39: plus tim was all pissed at me b/c i said something about going out in front of sandy so i had to go and smooth things over
ColoradoBadger4: lol. hey shuddup my redness was so cute.
bernaly39: yeah...maybe a little, esp b/c it matched your shirt
ColoradoBadger4: ahhh yes. tim. he seems to know everything, doesn't he?
ColoradoBadger4: yes. it was frickin adorable :-)
ColoradoBadger4: and matched my watch and my shoes. i know what's up.
bernaly39: yeah tim got mad at me b/c "sandy has the biggest mouth and you just talked about up going out in from of her"...tim has a bigger mouth then anyone
ColoradoBadger4: LOL. so what do i sense a little tension there?
bernaly39: no...i am just giving background details as to why i had to fold denim/"run away from you"
ColoradoBadger4: lol. yes he's an interesting guy.
ColoradoBadger4: just don't believe whatever he tells you, mmmkay?
bernaly39: oh really? like what are you refering to?
ColoradoBadger4: has he said anything?
bernaly39: about what?
ColoradoBadger4: me. at all?
bernaly39: hmm just that you thought you got cali pregnant...dont worry i didnt tell anyone in the store
bernaly39: KIDDING!!!!!!!!!!!!! he never said that
ColoradoBadger4: wtf? very funny
bernaly39: :-Dhee hee hee
ColoradoBadger4: omg for a second i believed yo.
ColoradoBadger4: evil.
ColoradoBadger4: this work thing is getting weird.
bernaly39: how so?
ColoradoBadger4: the whole cali debacle. everyone things one thing, but it's another. then the whole hailey situation
ColoradoBadger4: i just don't effin understand it
bernaly39: its b/c your too damn sexy chris...its hard isnt it
ColoradoBadger4: ahhh yes. even the bisexual girls think im "damn sexy"
bernaly39: yeah...its true ;-)
ColoradoBadger4: tim and i actually talked about this once
ColoradoBadger4: bout a month ago
bernaly39: about what exaclty?
ColoradoBadger4: well it was wed morning so we were doing markdowns. and tim and sandy were there
ColoradoBadger4: and we were eating breakfast when sandy like blurts out "so why'd you and jessica break up"
bernaly39: haha she would blurt that out
ColoradoBadger4: i was just like ummm. wtf do i say cuz tim was sitting right there eating.
bernaly39: and...
ColoradoBadger4: so i think for a second and im like "well, i think we're just too different. we get along great, but we're just too different for any type of relationship"
bernaly39: and..
ColoradoBadger4: and that's all you get to know :-)
bernaly39: eww thats a tease
ColoradoBadger4: i know.
ColoradoBadger4: it kinda bothers me we don't talk anymore....at all
bernaly39: yeah it bothers me too
ColoradoBadger4: why *don't* we talk?
bernaly39: wait i have a question..so is this ---->"well, i think we're just too different. we get along great, but we're just too different for any type of relationship" why we stopped dating
ColoradoBadger4: honestly?
bernaly39: yeah
ColoradoBadger4: at the time, i didn't really know why we stopped dating
ColoradoBadger4: and i guess *that's* what bothered me more than anything. we just kinda stopped hanging out.
ColoradoBadger4: i guess i was cool with the whole thing because i realize you're really different from me
bernaly39: yeah i know...we are really different....but that what i kinda liked about us
ColoradoBadger4: yeah it was nice to not have the same thing every single day.
ColoradoBadger4: timing was off though.
bernaly39: i dont know, for me it wasnt really about that....i just wasnt ready for anything serious
ColoradoBadger4: well i just needed to still grow a little more.
bernaly39: and things felt as though they were moving too fast, so i kinda stepped back, then i left for cali, and when i got back things were just all weird
ColoradoBadger4: well it didn't help we just kinda stopped talking altogether. i figured you got on with your life, i got on with mine.
ColoradoBadger4: i think a couple mistakes were made
ColoradoBadger4: a)stopped talking completely.
ColoradoBadger4: b) too much too soon
bernaly39: yeah i totally agree
ColoradoBadger4: i could tell you never really felt completely comfortable around me.
bernaly39: it wasnt really that...it was more the fact that i was just getting a lot of pressure from my friends...which now that i look back on it was SO stupid of me to listen to them
ColoradoBadger4: like what? you never told me this.
bernaly39: 1. they didnt like me dating a boy. 2. they didnt like that they didnt have all my attention
ColoradoBadger4: 1. they didnt like me dating a boy.
ColoradoBadger4: bing.
ColoradoBadger4: *bingo.
bernaly39: 3. they knew i really liked you i dont think they handled that well
ColoradoBadger4: i could *always* tell they would never really completely accept me and you. but that was fine. i still enjoyed the hell otu of them :-).
ColoradoBadger4: i think they kinda assumed u were a lesbian
bernaly39: yeah...they think everyone is gay tho so...
ColoradoBadger4: LOL
bernaly39: i totally got a kick out of watching you stand up to elisa !
ColoradoBadger4: i really enjoyed that too. and i really do wanna read the da vinchi code...i wasn't full of shit.
bernaly39: i never thought you were
ColoradoBadger4: i don't think they did. but i was. i also enjoyed hugging BOTH elisa AND sheena :-)
bernaly39: haha yeah i got a kick out of watching that too!!!
bernaly39: i dont even really talk to those two anymore
ColoradoBadger4: i went to the electric cafe sunday! i was like damn. good stuff.
ColoradoBadger4: yeah tim said they moved in together and are married. oh i hear all the gossip.
ColoradoBadger4: *like married.
bernaly39: hah yeah, i mostly hang out with the roomies
bernaly39: feds and cole...we have a blast
bernaly39: togeather
ColoradoBadger4: i never even met cole! im mad
ColoradoBadger4: feds is actually sane.
bernaly39: well you can still meet cole, she is still alive and here in my apartment
ColoradoBadger4: what would require us to *hang out*
bernaly39: yes this IS true
ColoradoBadger4: and since you run and hide whenever im around.....;-)
bernaly39: hey i havent exaclty gotten any phone calls are im or invites from you either!
ColoradoBadger4: oh jessica. you know my issues with the phone.
ColoradoBadger4: and i didn't really know how you felt
bernaly39: yup...you dont like to use it
bernaly39: yeah same here....im gald we are finally talking about this at least
ColoradoBadger4: yeah. felt good to actually *talk* to you. like a normal conversation. cuz honestly this was kinda eating at me a little
bernaly39: i have to admit that the reason i texted you that night (that was a drunk text btw :-) ) was because i wanted to talk about all this stuff b/c it was bothering me too
ColoradoBadger4: yeah i was hoping it was a drunken text. i was pissed you didn't actually CALL me. you pussed out again and used im.
bernaly39: hey....yeah its true i wont deny it
ColoradoBadger4: i do have one more thing i have tosay
bernaly39: ok...
bernaly39: suspense!
ColoradoBadger4: i guess the reason this bothered me so much was the fact that i actually *enjoyed* hanging out with you. you know? i had fun.
bernaly39: chris honestly...i really did too, for how diffrent we were we still had a lot in commen ya kno, like whatever we did we both had fun
bernaly39: playin basketball ( i kicked you ass) or watching "a walk to remember"
ColoradoBadger4: well we got along good. and i guess it just kinda stung when i realized i wouldn't hang out with you very much. cuz we just got along well
ColoradoBadger4: and i did let you win.
bernaly39: i would really like it if we could hang out still (whatever you were getting pissed once i was on fire)
ColoradoBadger4: it was a CHICK'S BALL
bernaly39: riiiight
ColoradoBadger4: and two thing always reminds me of you. whenever a)i hear the song she will be loved and
ColoradoBadger4: b) whenever someone says "that's gay" i now get offended. :-)
bernaly39: :-) awww you are too freakin cute
ColoradoBadger4: (but i still let you win)
bernaly39: fyi i still listen to the cds you made me (did not)
ColoradoBadger4: LOL. and the ones you still have of mine :-)
bernaly39: yeah i need to get those back to you!
ColoradoBadger4: eh. take ur time i always have backups.
bernaly39: thats true..music is you like...
bernaly39: and peanut butter
ColoradoBadger4: and that BUGS me that ae is now playing some of the songs on the cds i made you that are OLD.
bernaly39: and whipped cream....yeah like the welcome back song
bernaly39: a few others too
ColoradoBadger4: it angers me. oh by the way im assuming you told tim of my music prowess.
bernaly39: maybe why?
ColoradoBadger4: he asked me to burn a cd for him for volleyball warm-ups.
ColoradoBadger4: jessica, tim now tells me everything.
bernaly39: ohh yeah he wanted me too but my areslite isnt workin so i told him you were the king of music
ColoradoBadger4: yeah i only have one blank cd left. plus i need to hold off on the music dl for a while until these lawsuits get settled.
bernaly39: yeah be careful with that
ColoradoBadger4: oh you know me. smart smart. one step ahead. always.
bernaly39: one of my profs said like three people from uw were gunna get arested
bernaly39: arrested
bernaly39: sued actually
ColoradoBadger4: im not surprised i think ive downloaded like two songs since i moved in
bernaly39: so how is the apt??
ColoradoBadger4: omg i love it
ColoradoBadger4: the location is wonderful
bernaly39: dayton right?
ColoradoBadger4: close. w. mifflin. heart of the party ;-)
bernaly39: dayton and what?
ColoradoBadger4: lol im not ON dayton dear
bernaly39: well where are ya then?
ColoradoBadger4: dayton is one street from me. 434 West Mifflin.
ColoradoBadger4: omg i forgot to tell you
bernaly39: aww gotcha...what?
ColoradoBadger4: you know that night you texted me drunk?
bernaly39: yeah
ColoradoBadger4: well that night cali was really really drunk so i wouldn't let her drive home
ColoradoBadger4: so i made her crash here (although i wasn't too thrilled)
bernaly39: yeeesss,,,
ColoradoBadger4: and i wake up that sun. morning and see i have a text message. naturally, when i see it was from you my mouth kinda drops.
bernaly39: naturally
ColoradoBadger4: (but for some reason i had an odd feeling you would at least *try* to contact me)
ColoradoBadger4: and she's like "what" and grabs the phone. sees it's you and absolutely flips out
bernaly39: are you serious??
bernaly39: what did she say?
ColoradoBadger4: she was like "why the hell is she talking to you"
ColoradoBadger4: stuff like that. im like "dude. wtf."
bernaly39: wow...damn dont tell her that we are talking again, i dont want her to come down here and beat me up!
ColoradoBadger4: LOL ahahaha. methinks she's got a little crush on me.
bernaly39: no kiddin capt obvious how can you tell???
ColoradoBadger4: let's be nice to christopher. you sem to forget how oblivious he can be.
bernaly39: yes this it true
ColoradoBadger4: it feel good to talk to you again.
bernaly39: me too honestly
bernaly39: i would still like to hang out sometime, just study or watch football or something
ColoradoBadger4: like something's been lifted off my shoulders.
ColoradoBadger4: im bein cheesy tonight :-)
ColoradoBadger4: omg you watching footbal?
bernaly39: you would be so proud of me...
ColoradoBadger4: lol. and why is that??
bernaly39: at the serf today i was watching the tv with espn on and they were talking about football the entire time
ColoradoBadger4: omg good for you!! i was bawling my eyes out after the iowa game saturday. it was soooo sad.
bernaly39: i tried to learn something so i could impress you....but it was subtitles so it was hard to read....someone with the last name moss is really good
ColoradoBadger4: LMAO omg that is profile worthy right there.
ColoradoBadger4: that is impressive work.
bernaly39: NO cali might read it and try to hurt me
ColoradoBadger4: LOL. oh dear.
ColoradoBadger4: maybe you should bulk up and take her.
bernaly39: im sure youd like to watch that fight
ColoradoBadger4: u would absolutely kick her ass to oblivion
bernaly39: i dont know...i think she would be out for blood
ColoradoBadger4: id like to see a drinking match actually.
bernaly39: my tolarance is droppping b.c i never drink anymore hardly
ColoradoBadger4: see. i rub off on you in implicit ways.
bernaly39: yes its true...and i havent touched weed in forever
ColoradoBadger4: couldn't you get random tested for that shit though?
bernaly39: im sure its possible
bernaly39: so you dont work sunday do you?
ColoradoBadger4: ahhh jessica. i forgot how much fun you are
ColoradoBadger4: actually i do
bernaly39: when?
ColoradoBadger4: i guess i work 6 days next wee
bernaly39: i think i do to...but i dont remember when
ColoradoBadger4: inventory...6 am -11 am. you work at 11. i still kinda check :-).
bernaly39: ok so wanna here something really nerdy?
ColoradoBadger4: please.
bernaly39: i had starbusts at work the other day...and i was going to leave one in your name tag....but i didnt (ok that wasnt a good story..but you get the idea)
ColoradoBadger4: OMG. <3. that's so cute.
bernaly39: O:-)......ok sunday...when im done with work do you wanna watch a football game??
ColoradoBadger4: don't worry. i still kinda keep tabs on ya in subtle ways. you forgot how intelligent i am.
ColoradoBadger4: of course i do.
bernaly39: ohh really do you look in my window at night???
bernaly39: or check away messages...b/c i;m all of yours!
ColoradoBadger4: lol. i said *subtle* and legal ways. after all, i did date you.
bernaly39: haha yes legal is good
ColoradoBadger4: i know you do. that's why i do mine carefully.
ColoradoBadger4: you have always told me "i check away messages" and i figured you paid extra-special attention to mine :-)
bernaly39: yeah i didnt see any that said "jessica is a big bitch"
bernaly39: and profiles too
ColoradoBadger4: lol do you check mine?
bernaly39: yeah...once maybe twice a week....or everyday ya know when ever
ColoradoBadger4: i always wanted to put the lyrics to "jessica" on there because it's such a good song. but i was afraid you'd think i was like stalking you.
ColoradoBadger4: LOL
bernaly39: so were any of those song directed at me?
ColoradoBadger4: privately maybe a few now and then.
ColoradoBadger4: i told you the whole thing bothered me so it was my release
bernaly39: yeah i agree
bernaly39: but im seriously glad we are talking again
bernaly39: ok so sunday you really wanna watch a game??
ColoradoBadger4: yeah. it feels good to actually talk to you and not read your away message :-D
ColoradoBadger4: of course i do
bernaly39: sweet, well im gunna call you after im done with work? sound good??
ColoradoBadger4: *yay*
ColoradoBadger4: you do realize you could always give me a holla before then. if you wanna study or get a bite sometime. cuz you know im gonna force us to hang out now.
bernaly39: sounds great!! and if you come into teddywedgers on thurdsay ill still give you a cookie
ColoradoBadger4: really?
bernaly39: yeah if the boss isnt watching...ill be sneaky
ColoradoBadger4: i have a break at like 9:30 so i might have too.....
ColoradoBadger4: you little devil
bernaly39: ok well ill probably give you a call before then if i can hang out...or even just to bug ya
bernaly39: i think im gunna go to bed now..gettting sleeeppppyyyyyy
ColoradoBadger4: heck yeah. im done by noon every day. except tues and thurs i have a disc. at 3:30
ColoradoBadger4: yeah im tired.
ColoradoBadger4: well this made my night :-)
bernaly39: me too!
bernaly39: ill call you soon...
ColoradoBadger4: *goody*
bernaly39: sweet dreams!!!
ColoradoBadger4: night night
bernaly39: night!
bernaly39 direct connection is closed.
bernaly39 is away at 1:24:38 AM.
ColoradoBadger4: btw - <3 your away message ;-)

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bernaly39 returned at 9:48:38 AM.
bernaly39: hey what time are you done with work today??
bernaly39: well im going to be studying at starbucks from about 4-6 so if you are around you should stop by...ill be in the upstairs...if not ill see or call you tomorrow....have a good day and try not to distract all the ladies in class :-)
bernaly39 is away at 10:05:54 AM.
ColoradoBadger4: oh jessica you know how simply my *presence* distracts ladies.

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ColoradoBadger4: and b) i might have to stop in at like 4:30 when im done with my discussion.
ColoradoBadger4: and c) i work 5-8:30 tonight. be home around 9. big break from 12-3:30. HOLLA.
bernaly39: well i might have to have a strawberrys and cream frap with extra whipped cream waiting at 430 then
bernaly39 returned at 10:07:56 AM.
ColoradoBadger4: oh really? good choice. :-).
bernaly39: yeah, so if you cant make it before work...ill probably end up drinking it :-)
ColoradoBadger4: ill be there from like 2-3:30 and like 4:30-5. ima nerd.
ColoradoBadger4: im a nerd. i slept really well last night.
bernaly39: yeah i pretty much have class from 11-3:45...i slept well too...eventho i had to sleep on the couch
ColoradoBadger4: why?
bernaly39: b/c feds and i have bunkbeds (fun) and we dont have a ladder yet, and i was up late talking to someone ;-), she was sleeping by the time i was done and i didnt want to wake the precious angel
ColoradoBadger4: LOL. feds the "precious angel." compared to you she prly is a saint. O:-)
bernaly39: O:-)<---ME!!! duh!
bernaly39: ok well i need to do my hair before class, so ill see you at 4:30 maybe??
ColoradoBadger4: mmmkay
bernaly39: btw..STILL haven gotten a haircut yet
bernaly39: it is SO long
ColoradoBadger4: LOL i was actually gonna ask.\
ColoradoBadger4: it's prly all shaggy and what not
bernaly39: yes...i am trying to become a dirty hippie
bernaly39: im putting in the dreds soon
bernaly39: (ewwwwww)
ColoradoBadger4: tree hugger.
ColoradoBadger4: i so obsessed with my phone i might even text ur ass.
ColoradoBadger4: are you all for peace and love now too?
bernaly39: no i am for war and hatred
bernaly39: please text me...i get SO bored in class!!
bernaly39: esp from 2:30-2:45
bernaly39: 3*
bernaly39: 45
bernaly39: that class sucks
ColoradoBadger4: i think i might have to.
ColoradoBadger4: what is it
bernaly39: soc of law
ColoradoBadger4: oh dear
bernaly39: ok well i should go..i may actually be on time to class today!!!
ColoradoBadger4: ha. right. peaceout.
bernaly39: ill see you later :-)
bernaly39 is away at 10:16:52 AM.
bernaly39 signed off at 12:09:39 PM.
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this is sooo funny [19 Sep 2004|07:28pm]
How many UW students does it take to chang a light bulb? thanx to cali for this golden e-mail...hilarity for the whole family...

At Madison it takes two. One to change the bulb and one more to brag
about how they did it every bit as well as any Ivy League school.
At Oshkosh it takes two thousand. One to change the bulb, and one
thousand nine hundred and ninety nine to riot and set it on fire.
At Stout it takes ten, one to change the bulb and the other nine to sit
around and watch because it is the big entertainment of the evening.
At Whitewater it takes six because that's how many people actually stay
in the dorms on the weekend instead of going home.
At Stevens Point it takes zero. They are all too drunk from the night
before to care whether or not the lights are on.
At UW Milwaukee it takes four. One to change the bulb, one to steal
the new bulb from the store, one to act as a lookout and one to drive the
getaway car.
At Eau Claire it doesnt have to be changed beause all the parties are
over before the lights need to go on so no one ever sees them anyway.
At Green Bay it takes twelve. Two to figure out how to screw it in and
ten to find an ugly enough lampshade to match their school colors.
At River Falls it takes zero. There is no electricity in River Falls,
only cows and corn (or lakeland for that matter)
At Superior it takes five. Four to strap on snow shoes and hike ten
miles to the nearest store to get the bulb and one to screw it in.
At Platteville it takes twenty. One to change the bulb and the other
nineteen to find a new way to engineer it so it never has to be changed
again.
At La Crosse it takes 3. One to screw it in, and the other two to
giggle because he said "screw"
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i really dont wanna study right now. killing time. [19 Sep 2004|07:24pm]
[ mood | confused ]

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so kati is basically a bartender underage with a fake i.d.

ANYWAY,
so my life has turned into a soap opera. don't ask me what im thinking, because i have no idea.

i kinda have been leading poor cali along, trying to give her a chance. i dunno why, but i haven't really told her how i *truthfully* feel. maybe i just like the attention (hell the ego stroking is awesome), maybe i do really like her, maybe im just an asshole i dont know. so monday cali was naggin me to come visit her. and i was just like "oh hell why not. im sure ill think of a way to get out of this." so thursday came, and i was still saying i was going. and by this time, if i would have weaseled out of this, she would have either a)gone pyschotic and cut my nuts off, b) got all emotional and cried for three straight days, or c) become a stalker. so there was basically no backing out because she knows i only work until 5 on fridays. friday i get off at like 5:30, and tim SOME-FREAKING-HOW finds out my plans. and he laughs. he convinces me it wouldn't be a good idea to drive two hours to see a girl i really don't think i like that much. and i agree, so im trying to think of excuses. i wanted to be like "they're keeping me later than planned" because they kept me five minutes later than scheduled. but i had a fear cali would call and make sure i was working late. and yes, im serious about that. finally, i decide there is no backing out, so i recultantly leave for green bay.

actually, the drive wasn't that bad. i got there well under two hours. and the radio stations around green bay and the fox valleys was VERY GOOD. wow. i mostly listened to ESPN radio anyway. but here's why i didn't wanna go: i really really wanted to wacth the iowa and csu games on, but they were on saturday night. so i kinda told her i had to be back saturday evening in madison for an event at my parents work. yes, i know it was not the whole truth, but what was i supposed to say? "football over you?"

i get there about 8:30 and she is really really horny. and im not complaining. shes in the "i wanna have sex with you right here and right now" mode. which is not bad, but she knows im the "v" card. so im watching football with her (yes, i made her watch college football for a lil bit friday night). her roomates get home, so she is pissed we can't fuck around any more and make out. i eat the cookies she made, and she decides to cook for me. i mean, wtf? im not complaining, because the mac and cheese, cookies, pop, AND cereal were wonderful. so she takes me out to meet all her uwgb friends and what not. and they're actually cool people. but i was sad i didn't get to see my former co-workers kaitlyn and katrina, who just happened to go home to madison when i go up to green bay. i smell irony.

so then there's the whole roomate drama. basically, one of cali's three roomates has been a real bitch and the other three want her kicked out. and fri night the "other" roomate decided to suddenly leave to see her boyfriend three hours away for the weekend without telling her three roomates. so there's drama all around there. but friday night was actually enjoyable. plus, another co-worker has begun to call me. i get random drunk phone calls from this girl named hailey. so she calls me friday night, drunk, and she's like "we should really hang out sometime, because you're hot." and naturally, cali doesn't like this too much. in fact, she gets pissed. fun times for the whole family.

saturday i wake up, and she makes food. again. rolls. good stuff. yummy. then at noon or so we go to this place called the "urban frog" where cali's roomate angie works. i was a little tripped out by the whole "natrual" vibe, but the foot was good. surprisingly. and i really got along with her roomates too, so that helped. and then we went to the mall, and i stopped into her place of employment, the green bay ae. they blow. anyway, i end up leaving about 1 (had to get home to see the uw game at 3). but the general thing is that i actually *WANTED* to stay a little longer. i found myself actually ENJOYING the trip. oh yeah, i wanna leave some pics here and leave a funny-ass e-mail cali sent.

then things get really weird. saturday night was spose to be a football night. but i was really getting pissed off, because BOTH CSU and IOWA were getting their asses handed to them. and i mean iowa got seriously beatdown. so im busy kicking, screaming, and throwing things. then i cry and go run in a little corner like a baby. when hailey calls me. keep in mind, this is after cali keeps calling me to check in. so hailey is intoxicated and is like "come to blah blah blah" and we'll hang out. so after a conversation with her AND her hot roomate and HOT friend, i go see them. and my, they are hot.

long story made, er, a little shorter, i think i actually might like cali. wtf is wrong with me? i mean i took pride in the fact i built a wall that disallowed me to get close to anyone. i liked that i was kind of a prick. am i sofening up? say it ain't so chris!!! cmon man, don't be a pussy.

more to come tonight.

and no, i don't wanna talk about c.football this week. im still crying. iowa pissed it down there leg. that is a whole nother entry, which i will takle later tonight after i take a break from studying.

i leave you with photos. and another entry for my funny-ass e-mail.

linky-poo
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[12 Sep 2004|02:35pm]
[ mood | weird ]

so some things to talk about here.

first of all, what a long ass day yesterday. but still a good one. got up at 7 and went tailgating until the UW/UNLV game started at 11. i was with my friend cali and her parents. we went to their spot. btw, what a nice damn spot. right on regent street kitty corner from mcdonalds. we met all their friends there (and watching adults get shit-faced in front of their kids-while drinking WITH their kids is possibly the funniest thing on earth) and had some pre-game snacks. meanwhile, since i don't drink, i was the absolute only sober one there. there was me, cali, two of her high school friends from stoughton, cali's parents, her aunt and uncle, and a bunch of her parents friends. plus, some funny moments. a teacher from stoughton got trased in front of his former students. but while this was entertaining, it CANNOT top what followed the game.

so we get to the game with a few minutes until kickoff. btw-perfect seats. and being i had my cool camera phone, i snapped a few photos. and if kati or darthmal is nice and tells me how to link them, i'll put em on here. these were perfect seats. 40 yard line, 20-freaking rows up. it was nice to be away from the student section and get a real good idea of how the student section actually LOOKS. so cali and her folks are quite tipsy and buzzing, but not yet hammered. plus, it was realy freaking hot. my face is not ilke a tomato-and it's rather painful. bright red.

weird game too. two safeties - when was the last time you saw that happen? plus, mike allen missed two fairly close and easy field goals. not to mention, uw had fourth-and one inches away from the goal line, went for it, and was stuffed by unlv. at the end of the second quarter it was 2-0 unlv. unlv attempted a short field goal to take a 3-2 lead at halftime, but it was blocked. jim leohnard picked it up and ran the distance, so all of a sudden uw was leading 9-0 at half. then ended up winning 18-3. odd score.

so after the game we went back for some more food. stan (cali's dad) got out his nifty wisconsin grill and started slamming more beers. cali takes a quick piss and goes right for the miller. brats get fired up, then chicken and burgers. holy crap there was a lot of food. and i mean enough to feed an army. so everyone's gettin sloshed-and keep in mind theseare mostly adults with about three or four exceptions. cali's cousin and fiance come and stop by. meanwhile, we keep eating. and everyone keeps drinking. cali just keeps knockin back miller after miller. her parents are trashed. and it's hilarity at its finest. i have many drunk photos on my camera. and yet im the only dry one there. so we're in the parking lot, and other tailgaters start to clear out, yet our fairly big group's still there. and between the end of the parking lot and regent street there's a strip of grass about 10 feet - and it's a little hill/angle from the parking lot to the street. kind of a grassy knoll. so all the parents end up sitting there in a circle, while me, cali, her cousin and fiance, kelly, and tess are sitting a few feet away on the back of trucks, vans, etc. the parents decide to light up some big ole cigars, and at this time they are fairly incoherent. linda, a family friend, comes and starts talking. out of nowhere she's like "so did you smoke in high school." im dumbfounded, whil cali's cousin is like "i smoked pot a few times, but never cigs." so linda starts talking about something, but i couldn't really understand through all the slurring. now keep in mind cali's family and friends have a cabin on a lake up north and go there to chill every now and then. so linda's like "yeah one time recently bob's friend gave us some weed." and then she just walked away. my jaw is practially on the floor. if you knew these people, you would believe it. we all look at each other, and start to bust up laughing. i can just see all the adults smoking a fucking bong around the campfire with mr. cuervo in their hand. next thing i know, bob (another family friend) comes down the knoll and has a little trouble walking - he basically biffs it. trust me, this was the funniest afternoon of my life. words cannot describe how funny trashed adults are - while feeding their under-age kids beer. so cali's completely trashed. and cali worked at ae with me during the summer (she transferred to the store in green bay because she goes to school there). so she gets the brilliant idea to go shopping. i try and talk her out of it, because i know what would happen if we walk in, but she gets seriously like pissed. she's the type that gets REALLY emotional when she's drunk, and trust me, she was way past being drunk. so it's not worth arguing, so i finally give in. we walk in, and tim's working (the flamboyently homosexual. talk about flaming). he looks at us, knows the situation, and is about to bust up laughing. cali can barely walk-she sure can't walk in a straight line. tim looks at me - "are you drunk???"
me: "no, but cali is out of her mind." it takes a few moments to register, then cali gets pissed at me. so hailey, this girl who i think has a thing for me, comes over and is like 'why didn't you call me back last night - i thought we were gonna tailgate.' and btw, hailey gave me a drunk dial at about 2:30 friday night. so she's all hugging and flirting with me. meanwhile, cali for some reason is getting really pissed off.

oh yeah, i haven't mentioned that j.b. was working (yes, the bisexual chick.) now, that is why i didn't want to come in there. i was afraid she was working. so im talking to tim, cali's trying on clothes, hailey's trying to talk to me, and i can tell j.b. is really pissed off right now. im in the front, j.b. is at the register, and cali comes up to me and whispers "i don't wanna walk by the register i feel weird." i stare at her with my "wtf" look. so i run away like a coward to the back and sit on the couch while cali shops around. meanwhile, apparently j.b. isn't too happy, because she leaves the register and goes and folds denim, now, this doesn't sound like too big of a deal, but trust me, j.b. NEVER folds denim. she told me when we were dating: "i never fold denim. i hate it. i only do it when im pissed and don't want to talk to anyone." so she buys her shirts, j.b. is in her corner apparently having a quiet fuming tantrum. so cali is complete intoxicated and connot drive home. so she crashes at my apartment.

and then it gets really weird. she is about to throw up and looks at me.
"do you have any condoms?"
"um. what?"
"i wanna fuck you."
and she knows im a virgin. im just like cali, you're drunk, go to bed.

so this morning when we wake up things get weirder. i look at my phone and see i have a text message. and imagine my surprise when i look at the number and see that it was from j.b. so i did a double-take and cali grabs the phone and sees it. she like totally flips out. i mean is pissed. so i take her home, because she has to drive back to green bay today.

oh yeah. the text message? it said: "we should talk. call me tomorrow?" now keep in mind i haven't had a meaningful conversation with her (besides the obligitory work "hello how have you been doing?") in almost two months now. so needles to say, i have my 'what the fuck' look on right now. and no, i haven't called her. i haven't decided if im going to. because i know she'll end up calling me. so i guess something really pissed her off. ugh.

drama, drama, drama. i'll keep ya'll informed.

plus, i have to do my weekly college football update! i might even throw in a *bonus* NFL week one report if you're lucky!

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[08 Sep 2004|11:38pm]
[ mood | guilty ]

dear chris,












you are an asshole. and you are a jerk.












sincerely,
your conscious

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[05 Sep 2004|01:41am]
[ mood | tired ]

so i figure i should update this thing. but i don't know why, because a)i have nothing really to say, and b) only one (two if mal ever gets on the internet and checks mine) person who reads this thing. I HEART KATI SO DAMN MUCH.

so i say this about every time, but im at a really strange point in my life right now. but seriously. this cali thing is kinda freakin me out. she's all like "sorry if im gettin so protective and blah blah blah." im just like. wtf? im sooo confused. she gets pissed off whenever i don't call her (which is quite often considering my little problem dialing the phone - i don't like to). the truth is, i don't know if i can handle a girl like that right now - especially considering she now goes to school in green bay. speaking of which, she flipped out when i didn't drive the requisite two and a half hours to see her this weekend. i mean come on, like jon said: "it's not like that's a drive for milk and cookies." plus, school just started.

how bout that for a perfect segway.

although i don't have my schedule finalized, i actually enjoy my classes. friday's are gonna be nice. two classes back to back in the same room (yeah for 6210 social sciences - three total classes in there this semester). but what's nice is that they are those really really soft-cushiony-comfy-seats, so between classes i get a nice 15 minute nap. plus, they are huge classes. now i may be weird, but im one of the few who actually ENJOY large classes. maybe it's because i don't really have to look interested or enthused without getting caught because im smart enough i don't have to apy attention. i can just study for a night before the test and be good to go. and i know it. thank god i have brains. plus, a TOTAL hottie sat next to me. i mean this girl was a smokin bombshell - tall, blonde, killer body. tan too. but the best was she was wearin a lil black mini-skirt (and kati-take note: skirts are my FUKKIN FAVORITE. you want me to love you forever? wear a nice lil skirt). and it was one of those where you could tell she looked uncomfortable in it. you know, she looked like no matter how she sat she couldn't get comfy because the skirt was so short she's show off her cooter if she sat any way but having her legs crossed. and the way that room is set up, it was almost impossible. a 50-minute erection (hellllooo morning wood) is a nice way to start your friday morning. too bad ill never have the balls to even utter a "hello." the only problem was her shirt. it was the cliche'd "please don't eat me" with a pig on the shirt. the one from urban that every vegetarian now wears. especially that "human righs dickhead!" chick who was in my sp/com class last year. but i can't complain. if she sits by me again wednesday, i think ill have an orgasm. and yes, she sat by me. but i can't read anything into it, cuz the room was getting pretty crowded.

but overall, not a bad start to the school year. although i have to fix my sched. on monday night.

oh yeah, im getting real tired of working 6 days a week. thank god i had today off. i woulda gone crazy had they used my on-call. so today my day consisted of this:
a)watching college football
b)getting a frappuchino from starbucks.
yes, it sad i know, but sports=my life. my reason for living. since i know no one cares, ill make this short. my thoughts on the FIRST FULL DAY OF COLLEGE FOOTBALL. god that sounds good to say again.
1) im still pissed at CSU. choked. bigtime. phuck cu. don't wanna talk about that one.
2) iowa - pretty good and solid opener. chad greenway and the defenswe were just as good as advertised, if not better. offense needs work, especially the line. hope schnoor's injury isn't very severe. getting jermelle back next week will be a huge lift. good opener for tate, except for that pick returned for Kent State's only score late in the first half. all in all, i can't copmlain too much. ISU up next - should be another safe W, but never be too sure with interstate rivalries.
3) wisky - at first i wasn't impressed. central florida was hangin around. but uw finally got it together and handled ucf pretty easily. good game - stocco could be better, but will most likely get better with time and real gametime practice. receivers - charles and orr and to an extent b. williams - impressed me. davis HAS to stay healthy for this team to do damage in the big 10. they have good, serviceable backups who have experience (read: booker stanley), but i get the feeling booker doesn't quite strike the fear in the heart like anthony davis does. good job by both lines today, as expected. and im not as down on instant replay as everyone else is. next week: UNLV. at the camp. should be another easy W, but we all remember what happened last year.
4) i know it was the first game and it was a very soggy field, but LSU didn't impress me. AT ALL. somehow (as most top teams do) they managed to squak by Oregon State in overtime 22-15. but OSU gift-wrapped it and lost more than LSU won. seriously 3 missed XP's? that and the northwestern debacle thursday night, i don't remember ever having a year when kickers have choked major like this - and it's only the first week. Oklahoma also was a minor disappointment.
5) of all the teams i saw, Minnesota impressed me the most (yes, im pissed about it). 63 points on a solid Toledo team? kinda scary. everyone knew they were going to have a solid offense, but it appears the defense didn't play to shabby either. then again, a part of me still says wait until they play a solid run defense (as in IOWA) in the big 10. i still get the feeling they'll find a way to piss it down their leg.

this b10 race is shaping up to be wide open - Michigan wasn't THAT impressive, but finally pulled away vs. a decent Miami team, tOSU wasn't that impressive either (remember, this is the first game of the year-probably a lot of first-game jitters in front of a huge audience), Illinois is better than last year but they still will suck (ignore the big win because it's a friggen d1AA team for cripes sake - no offense florida a&m), northwester SHOULD HAVE beat TCU thursday night but they need to fix their kicking problems - SERIOUSLY - five missed kicks in college? cmon Huffman you're better than that, Purdue plays tomorrow and that'll be interesting, Sparty didn't have a good game - hell, they lost to rutgers - but i really think rutgers will be better than advertised and John L. Smith has Michigan State headed in the right direction, Minnesota will be good and has a chance in the league, Penn State is hard to judge cuz like most others they killed a really crap MAC team - Akron, Wisky will be solid, Iowa and their offense *should* get their act together - and soon, Indiana had a nice win against central michigan, but shouldn't really conted but they'll win a game they shouldn't. overall, i see five teams shooting for the top of the league - uw, iowa, um, osu, and minny - with michigan, ohio state, and one of either uw, iowa, or minny coming out in the top three. purdue could sneak up on people if they find a solid defense. orton is the only qb i really trust in the conference right now after shaky debuts. Michigan State could have kinda down year because everyone else is improving this year quicker, but watch out for them in the future. smith is having some solid recruiting classes. northwestern could challenge for a bowl again, but for some reason i doubt it. they have too many holes and made too many small mistakes. plus, did i mention they REALLY need to shore up their kicking game. penn state looks improved (the game AT happy valley kinda scares me), as does indiana and illinois, but not enough to get out of the bottom half of the conference. not this year. keep in mind they played crappy opponents.

finally, my rankings in the B10 for the day/week.
1) Michigan (the reigning champs till knocked off or shown me otherwise)
2) i hate to say it, but Minnesota (just impressive all around. maybe toledo was just overrated this year, we'll see)
3) Iowa/Wisky (probably just for this week, but they were both more impressive than tOSU today. i tie them because they were both solid games against fairly weak MAC teams. both teams have some issues, but both teams could have unforgettable years if those issues get fixed.
5) tOSU (blah game for them - they'll be better as the year goes on. keep in mind Ohio State usually plays up (or down) to the level of their competition.)
6) Purdue (could move up -or down- based on tomorrow's performance vs. syracuse
7) Penn State
8) Northwestern
9) Michigan State (will probably move ahead of NW in a few weeks, and maybe even PSU)
10) Indiana
11) Illinois (ok, they and indiana are probably equal, but i just really really hate the illini)

k that's it. promise. night.

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[05 Sep 2004|12:58am]
so i figure i should update this thing. but i don't know why, because a)i have nothing really to say, and b) only one (two if mal ever gets on the internet and checks mine) person who reads this thing. I HEART KATI SO DAMN MUCH.

so i say this about every time, but im at a really strange point in my life right now. but seriously. this cali thing is kinda freakin me out. she's all like "sorry if im gettin so protective and blah blah blah." im just like. wtf? im sooo confused. she gets pissed off whenever i don't call her (which is quite often considering my little problem dialing the phone - i don't like to). the truth is, i don't know if i can handle a girl like that right now - especially considering she now goes to school in green bay. speaking of which, she flipped out when i didn't drive the requisite two and a half hours to see her this weekend. i mean come on, like jon said: "it's not like that's a drive for milk and cookies." plus, school just started.

how bout that for a perfect segway.

although i don't have my schedule finalized, i actually enjoy my classes. friday's are gonna be nice. two classes back to back in the same room (yeah for 6210 social sciences - three total classes in there this semester). but what's nice is that they are those really really soft-cushiony-comfy-seats, so between classes i get a nice 15 minute nap. plus, they are huge classes. now i may be weird, but im one of the few who actually ENJOY large classes. maybe it's because i don't really have to look interested or enthused without getting caught because im smart enough i don't have to apy attention. i can just study for a night before the test and be good to go. and i know it. thank god i have brains. plus, a TOTAL hottie sat next to me. i mean this girl was a smokin bombshell - tall, blonde, killer body. tan too. but the best was she was wearin a lil black mini-skirt (and kati-take note: skirts are my FUKKIN FAVORITE. you want me to love you forever? wear a nice lil skirt). and it was one of those where you could tell she looked uncomfortable in it. you know, she looked like no matter how she sat she couldn't get comfy because the skirt was so short she's show off her cooter if she sat any way but having her legs crossed. and the way that room is set up, it was almost impossible. a 50-minute erection (hellllooo morning wood) is a nice way to start your friday morning. too bad ill never have the balls to even utter a "hello." the only problem was her shirt. it was the cliche'd "please don't eat me" with a pig on the shirt. the one from urban that every vegetarian now wears. especially that "human righs dickhead!" chick who was in my sp/com class last year. but i can't complain. if she sits by me again wednesday, i think ill have an orgasm. and yes, she sat by me. but i can't read anything into it, cuz the room was getting pretty crowded.

but overall, not a bad start to the school year. although i have to fix my sched. on monday night.

oh yeah, im getting real tired of working 6 days a week. thank god i had today off. i woulda gone crazy had they used my on-call. so today my day consisted of this:
a)watching college football
b)getting a frappuchino from starbucks.
yes, it sad i know, but sports=my life. my reason for living. since i know no one cares, ill make this short. my thoughts on the FIRST FULL DAY OF COLLEGE FOOTBALL. god that sounds good to say again.
1) im still pissed at CSU. choked. bigtime. phuck cu. don't wanna talk about that one.
2) iowa - pretty good and solid opener. chad greenway and the defenswe were just as good as advertised, if not better. offense needs work, especially the line. hope schnoor's injury isn't very severe. getting jermelle back next week will be a huge lift. good opener for tate, except for that pick returned for Kent State's only score late in the first half. all in all, i can't copmlain too much. ISU up next - should be another safe W, but never be too sure with interstate rivalries.
3) wisky - at first i wasn't impressed. central florida was hangin around. but uw finally got it together and handled ucf pretty easily. good game - stocco could be better, but will most likely get better with time and real gametime practice. receivers - charles and orr and to an extent b. williams - impressed me. davis HAS to stay healthy for this team to do damage in the big 10. they have good, serviceable backups who have experience (read: booker stanley), but i get the feeling booker doesn't quite strike the fear in the heart like anthony davis does. good job by both lines today, as expected. and im not as down on instant replay as everyone else is. next week: UNLV. at the camp. should be another easy W, but we all remember what happened last year.
4) i know it was the first game and it was a very soggy field, but LSU didn't impress me. AT ALL. somehow (as most top teams do) they managed to squak by Oregon State in overtime 22-15. but OSU gift-wrapped it and lost more than LSU won. seriously 3 missed XP's? that and the northwestern debacle thursday night, i don't remember ever having a year when kickers have choked major like this - and it's only the first week. Oklahoma also was a minor disappointment.
5) of all the teams i saw, Minnesota impressed me the most (yes, im pissed about it). 63 points on a solid Toledo team? kinda scary. everyone knew they were going to have a solid offense, but it appears the defense didn't play to shabby either. then again, a part of me still says wait until they play a solid run defense (as in IOWA) in the big 10. i still get the feeling they'll find a way to piss it down their leg.

this b10 race is shaping up to be wide open - Michigan wasn't THAT impressive, but finally pulled away vs. a decent Miami team, tOSU wasn't that impressive either (remember, this is the first game of the year-probably a lot of first-game jitters in front of a huge audience), Illinois is better than last year but they still will suck (ignore the big win because it's a friggen d1AA team for cripes sake - no offense florida a&m), northwester SHOULD HAVE beat TCU thursday night but they need to fix their kicking problems - SERIOUSLY - five missed kicks in college? cmon Huffman you're better than that, Purdue plays tomorrow and that'll be interesting, Sparty didn't have a good game - hell, they lost to rutgers - but i really think rutgers will be better than advertised and John L. Smith has Michigan State headed in the right direction, Minnesota will be good and has a chance in the league, Penn State is hard to judge cuz like most others they killed a really crap MAC team - Akron, Wisky will be solid, Iowa and their offense *should* get their act together - and soon, Indiana had a nice win against central michigan, but shouldn't really conted but they'll win a game they shouldn't. overall, i see five teams shooting for the top of the league - uw, iowa, um, osu, and minny - with michigan, ohio state, and one of either uw, iowa, or minny coming out in the top three. purdue could sneak up on people if they find a solid defense. orton is the only qb i really trust in the conference right now after shaky debuts. Michigan State could have kinda down year because everyone else is improving this year quicker, but watch out for them in the future. smith is having some solid recruiting classes. northwestern could challenge for a bowl again, but for some reason i doubt it. they have too many holes and made too many small mistakes. plus, did i mention they REALLY need to shore up their kicking game. penn state looks improved (the game AT happy valley kinda scares me), as does indiana and illinois, but not enough to get out of the bottom half of the conference. not this year. keep in mind they played crappy opponents.

finally, my rankings in the B10 for the day/week.
1) Michigan (the reigning champs till knocked off or shown me otherwise)
2) i hate to say it, but Minnesota (just impressive all around. maybe toledo was just overrated this year, we'll see)
3) Iowa/Wisky (probably just for this week, but they were both more impressive than tOSU today. i tie them because they were both solid games against fairly weak MAC teams. both teams have some issues, but both teams could have unforgettable years if those issues get fixed.
5) tOSU (blah game for them - they'll be better as the year goes on. keep in mind Ohio State usually plays up (or down) to the level of their competition.)
6) Purdue (could move up -or down- based on tomorrow's performance vs. syracuse
7) Penn State
8) Northwestern
9) Michigan State (will probably move ahead of NW in a few weeks, and maybe even PSU)
10) Indiana
11) Illinois (ok, they and indiana are probably equal, but i just really really hate the illini)
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[30 Aug 2004|12:22am]
so im so sad right now. the olympics are over. me = tears. see, no one else gets this. sports are essentiall my life. i freaking love the olympics, even though my sports aren't exactly the focus of the Games (football, golf, bball, etc etc). i don't know why, but i really get into them. something about thousands of the best athletes of their respective sports all being at the same place. plus, where else can the world care about a 16-year old girl to does flips really well? plus, beach volleyball. need i say more? i <3 misty may and want to marry kerry walsh. ahhhhh.

but anyway, i digress. swimming is probably my favorite event(s). call me crazy, but track is down the list for me. maybe because i was on the o-line so we didn't run fast.....hidden jealousy possibly. i hate fast little people. but swimming makes me feel fat when i see all those damn chisled bodies. i wish i grew up in a town of more than 1,000 people so we actually HAD a swimming pool or sumthin. so yes, i am bummed. two weeks of watching the Olympics NONSTOP has to end. what shall i do? i mean seriously, this is bummin me out. so some memories.

favorite chicks:
1)natalie coughlin and misty may and kerri walsh (her height just kinda turns me on).
2) jennie finch.
3) kaitlyn sandino.

favorite names:
1) peter van den hoogenband
2) pyrros dymas
3) inge de braujn (that just SOUNDS manly, doesn't it?)
4) ian thorpe (he just SOUNDS fast)
5) alexandre despiate (for mal and kati)
6) peng bo
7) whitney ping (yes, compteded for the us in table tennis)

most underrated events by americans:
1) team handball (seriously. luke and john taught us this game when they moved to traer in fourth grade. i mean it rules. honestly. how can you not love this game. mark my words, it'll be huge in the u.s. - and soon.)
2) the 1,5000 free swim. i don't know why, but i love this event. how can you not when you swim for over seven minutes? i just really admire their endurance.
3) water polo. it's fun to see world-class athletes look so DAMN awkard. makes me feel better about myself.
4) the eights in rowing. ok, ok, us won gold for men and silver (i think) for women, but that was damn fun to watch.
5) taekwando. omg i actually enjoyed this. it looked like they were dancing around on burning coals. watch just for the hilarity factor
6)trampoline. ok, it's not a great "sport," but fun as hell to watch.

best moments:
1) klete keller out-touching ian "thorpedo" thorpe to win gold in the 4 X 200 free relay. phelp's reaction was priceless.
2) u.s. kicking everyone's ass by allowing ONE RUN - in the final vs. australia - in sofball.
3)surpring bronze winner susan johnson taking her young daughter (named sydney - she was born when susan was training for the 2000 games) on the podium. and sydney placing the olive wreath around susan's head.
4) hisham el garruje FINALLY getting the monkey off his back and winning the olympic 15000. the only 2 big races in the 15000 he has lost has been in the past 2 olympics.
5)may and walsh tearing up beach volleyball.
6) isu grad cael sanderson winning gold.
7) phelps giving up his spot on the medley relay to let ian crocker win gold.
8) greece's first gold in snychro diving (another underrated sport)
9) isreal finally getting a gold medal - first one ever
10) a smattering of u.s. track - gatlin winning world's fastest man, us sweeping both the 200 and the 400. seriously, how impressive is that, with all the balco scandal?
11) seeing natalie coughlin dressed up ready to go out on the town. omfg she's hot.
12) morgan hamm and carley patterson winning the all-arounds.

unintentional funniest moment:
olympic late night, with pat o-brien interviewing 16 year old carly patterson:
o'brien: any boyfriends?
patterson: no, i don't have time.
o'brien: any girlfriends?
(patterson gives weirded out freak stare)
o'brien: friends, i mean
patterson: (still dumbfounded) um, yeah.
words cannot describe that comedy.

yes, im a nerd. i think i know everything about what happened in athens, and now it has to end. damn.




but now, to switch gears.
ima talk about my last 2 months. the craziest 2 months ive had in awhile. so lets start about the fourth of july, when i started seeing jessica. so for two weeks, nothing went wrong. then, we just stopped talking. stopped. no explanation from either of us. no phone calls. no internet. nothing. blah. so for the next two weeks, i was just in my "wtf happened" mode. weirded out, but busy getting the new apartment and what not.

then jessica left for cali. which was good, cuz i didn't have to worry about her calling me or im'ing me and what not. a step back and relax moment.

so then this thing with cali, which btw has gotten out of hand. this chick is like in love with me - seriuosly like infatuated. and i don't know what to do. ima little freaked out. i mean we hung out twice, and she's like getting all pyschotic "you better not see anybody when i leave for green bay." i mean, wtf? she wanted to sleep over. the SECOND TIME WE EVER HUNG OUT. ima little nervous for my life if things keep up. last night she gets all dramatic and pulls out the "i can't handle getting hurt chris." it was quite disturbing. so i don't know what to do. i don't wanna lead her on, but i don't want her getting pyschotic and killing me. so now what the fuck. last two weeks ive worked like 40 hours both weeks, and now i think (i hate to say it) but im ready for school to start. i just need some normalcy with my life. i sure has hell haven't gotten any the past two months. the jessica thing sure as hell wasn't normal. that was just a weird situation, compounded by the strange way it abrubtly ended. i think she's a lesbian. and tim agrees with me. on a scale of 1-10, where me being a zero and time is an 11, i think she's about an 8, maybe a 9 on certain days. meanwhile, cali may be completely hetero and hot, but that's getting weird too. i just need some stability (NORMAL stability) in my life. maybe school will help that.





blah.
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[24 Aug 2004|12:50am]
[ mood | blank ]

so i need to update this thingy.

suckfest of a day. had to work 9-5. so i *apparently* either completely ignore my alarm or just hit snooze a damn lot of time, because i awake and look at the clock. it says 8:48. i don't believe it. so i check another clock. and damn. i'm gonna be late. so i take about a two second shower. and if you know me, you KNOW how much i CAN'T STAND to be dirty. at all. i take long showers. so needless to say, i felt really gross and yuck today. damn. plus, i didn't have time to worry about my hair so i probably lookedl ike SHIT.

oh yeah, added on to that, jb was back at work today. so the first time i see her since she left fro cali over two weeks ago and i just haaave to look like absolute garbage. yippy. but hey, at least i was in back doing stock most of the day.

and that was about the only good part of the day: i kicked fright's ass. i mean i knocked it out and was done by 5. now tomorrow i just gotta put all that crap away.

im not even gonna get into what i did tonight on state street. let's just say i lost my funking ticket on the ramp and had to pay nine bucks for a replacement. i know it's not *that much,* but realize i am incredibly cheap.

so what a crapfest. here's where i stand: haven't really talked to (or cared to) jb in over a week. but i want that. im actually kinda bummed she's back working and in madison, cuz now i gotta worry about working with her. and i dunno wtf is wrong with me, but something about her just really drew me to her. and i guess it's not that i still like her a lot and what not, it's just i guess im really confused and dumfounded as to what happened and exactly why it ended. because i am over her, just not what happened. i guess it's because it's exactly what has happened to me for the only 2 other girls ive REALLY REALLY cared about before. things are going great, when all of a sudden, out of nowhere, BOOM. things just magically end.

i wonder when cali gets back. not like this matters, cuz she's leaving for college in two weeks anyway. damn. im getting depressed.

sh*t. somebody remind me to write about what happened last wednesday morning at work with tim and sandy. I STILL need to tell my story. cuz then everything will make more sense.

YAY for not working until 1:30 to 5:30 tomorrow. and YAY for being able to finally put up my posters that are funkin hilarity (and ironic, if you know me.) and YAY for the fact i will actually have time to get ready tomorrow!






damn. someone needs to cheer my ass up.

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[22 Aug 2004|01:17am]
I FORGOT TO ADD OMG IM AN IDIOT:



a) happy birthday mallory!!!!
b) hope you have fun in vegas katI!!


tis all.
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[17 Aug 2004|11:09pm]
[ mood | tired ]

'welcome back, welcome back, welcome back...'

yes, i have returned. christopher is back. i know ya'll (both of you) are thrilled.
and lemme just say, it's been lame the past few days without BOTH cable and the internet. since i am such an im whore, i don't know how i managed. but yes, i have returned. and it's wonderful.

so this week's gonna be a looong week at good ole ae. freaking freight SUCKS. plus, it didn't help the goon was two hours late. so yes, it sucked today. plus, i gotta work 8-5 tomorrow. good times.

speaking of work, i need to vent right now. wtf is it with me and co-workers. and im not even including the bisexual chick. i mean seriously. cali???? c'mon now, she may be really really hot, but still. she leaves for college again in about a month. and yet here i am..... damn. what is wrong with me. im not even including the kate keneven situation. omg i need to stop this. now. i need to take the advice of the shirt I MADE. the now ae ultra-famous shirt i made with AMERICAN EAGLE IRON-ON LETTERS: 'DON'T DATE CO-WORKERS.' trouble trouble. but fuck it, cali's hot. so there. plus, we got a new hot chick that just started. yummy. :). oh shit. i just realized j.b. comes back to work next week. and, of course, it turns out that i work with her next week. a lot. it's gonna be interesting to say the least.

but now for my happy moment of the day. so i was waiting for the charter dude at like 10 this morning. when i get a knock on the door. i expect to see the "technician," but instead it's a chick. a hot chick. so luckily im looking buff in my beater. so i quick throw on a hat. i open it and this chick (who actually reminds me of j.b. wid her tongue ring) smiles at me. she needed to use a phone of some kind. so i somehow say "yes." so it turns out she needs to call in to see if she needs to work "at the great dane." and we talk for a lil bit and she pulls out "you should come eat there today." so i know i may be a bit oblivious to chick's symbols, but SHE BETTER have been flirting with me. im not that dumb. so yes, needless to say, that made my day :).

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moving day [15 Aug 2004|09:59pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

so today was moving day. yippy. i got downtown at about 12:30. looking for a damn place to park. so finally i park a few blocks away in the meters (with my car full mind you) and go and get my keys and what not. so i go up to get a quick glance at my studio...and it fukking rox. im sooo pumped it's incredible. and all my friends are like "won't you get lonely?" but god no. i still see them all and they'll come over, but im the kinda person that i need my space sometimes. im sure you know this, but i enjoy stupid things alone like freaking livejournal and just finding a place to chill.

but from 12 - about 2:30 or 3 it was a damn madhouse today. freaking insane. downtown was loaded with huge u-hauls and maintenice workers picking up everybody's trash. but once we got a (and it was a good one too) spot everything went pretty smoothy. everything's all set up too. except for one problem. charter isn't coming until tuesday morning from 8-10 so right now i have no cable OR internet. im currently at my parents crib checking my mail and what not - this livejournal thing somehow has me *hooked.* how sad is that? so ive been watching the olympics and been at friends all night - yet i survived. i still gotta go to the gym tonight and lift/workout.

so yes, i am in a good mood right now. i might actually sleep, too. i *hope* this insomnia crap wears off, but i doubt it tonight. so that means ima read like no other this evening - i just need to find a good book. cold mountain sound appealing? mkay yeah.

YAY i just realized - i have my dvd/vcr player!!! which means i get to watch all of my amaaaazing dvd's and vhs's if i cant sleep. im da man.

yeah that's it. i need to go lift. night night.

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[15 Aug 2004|12:27am]
[ mood | cranky ]

so a craptastic day today.

work was long as hell. and i don't know why it was busy, and usually busy saturday's go by fast. maybe it was cuz i had to work a full eight hour shift.

and i have this gigantic feeling tomorrow's gonna be a nightmare. im just kinda glad i wasn't down there today. we were talking at work about how hellish it is tonight - half of downtown madison's gonna be homeless for the night and sleeping on the street, considering *most* all the lease's expire today, august fourteenth. i'm just glad i have a parking spot tomorrow. where my dad and mom are gonna park the pickup is gonna be another question. but noon tomorrow's gonna be insane. i dunno if we'll ever get everything in the apartment. i have a feeling i'll be making a lot of return trips to this house to get all the rest of the junk. dammitt i need to wake up early tomorrow too. F*)($#!!!!! i'll be happy when all this is over monday night, and tuesday when i get full internet access back. from tomorrow till tues. morning i'll prly be on aim, but not *there* if that makes any sense. i'll prly just leave aim on on my parent's internet, cuz let's face it, i'm an im whore. HOLLA!

oh yeah, the joys of working. wtf. so now i guess they are thinking of having me do stock. so basically, id be school all morning, work at the human ecology office in the afternoon till 4, then work stock at ae from 5-when im done at ae. but hey, i'd have saturdays AND sundays off if id want them, which means, of course, one thing. football. i'd be in heaven. but when the fuck am i gonna study?

so since today was a royal suckfest and tomorrow's gonna be crazy and hectice, here's a list of lil simple things i enjoy, just to put me in a good mood for when i go to bed.

-rain.
-watching a movie and cuddling all night (yes, im a nerdy sap. even a chick flick would do). preferrably, a rainy night.
-sports. any. and all. roar.
-iowa hawkeye football. and basketball, of course.
-family. thank god i'm close to them. they can be a *tad* overbearing at times, but i love em to death.
-seeing my old schools -both high schools and colorado state university- succeed
-talking to old friends i haven't seen in a long while
-knowing your wanted, needed, and cared for
-music when depressed that fits your mood
-drunken phone calls
-staying up all night talking
-making out (yes, can you tell im severly horny?)
-a simple "thank you"
-sleeping in
-playing ball -and tearing it up
-finding a secluded place no one knows about and just clearing your mind out
-holding hands at a movie.
-not giving a damn what anyone else things
-solving everyone's problems (as i always do)
-being the perfect kid (well ok, this kinda sucks sometimes.)
-fake id's
-knowing someday i'll find the perfect girl

god. that was SO emo. where's darth when you need her? she'll agree with me, considering she breathes that sappy crap. i'm sure i'll always edit and add some

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1 day! [14 Aug 2004|02:10am]
[ mood | stressed ]

so these next three days are gonna kinda suck. i got some much crap to do before i move sunday it's rediculous. what's worse i was 'spose to have tomorrow (saturday) off to pack and what not. but now i gotta work 2-9. that doesnt really bother me, cuz itll most likely be busy tomorrow. it better, anyway.

so that means i gotta wake up early tomorrow and start boxing all my crap up. plus, i gotta go to the westside and pick up that damn futon. hey, at least it's queen size and comfy for my big a$$. :). but luckilly we still have gobs of boxes in the bottom below the basement from the last move. i just hope i can get everything boxed tomorrow before one.

since i can't even get the keys till noon on sunday, i think ill be fine. i'm thinking of getting the keys and just filling *my* car up and getting all the small stuff in my crib sunday early afternoon. then when it's died down (it's gonna be a frickin madhouse down there sunday) i can have my dad come by w/ da truck with all my bigger stuff, like the futon, computer, and desk and what not. exciting crap.

but now im a lil irate. the olympics started tonight. and since you all know me, you know sports and music are, essentially, my life. i really get up for the olympics. hell, they're only once every four years. anyway, i have to work like 37 hours next week monday through saturday with sunday my only day off, which is fine cuz i want the hours, but it still kinda sux cuz i gotta miss the olympics. plus, charter digital cable and internet won't be set up till tuesday morning (damn i gotta wake up early tuesday too.) PLUS plus, 20 of those 37 hours next week are doing freight because holly can't work next week. FREAKING YAY. hey, at least jon works next week. haven't seen him in awhile.

long story short, it's gonna be a crazy ass hectic couple days. knowing me though, i'll still get an update tomorrow night, cuz the past few nights i haven't been sleeping well. i dunno wtf is going on, but my brain's gonna explode. im just never tired, but yet i still manage to sleep till noon every damn day. and yes, i'll still manage to get to princeton club every night at my usual time and lift like a madman. speaking of the p.c., this week ive actually been running - hard - in addition to my usual lift set. damn, i'm tired tonight too. i think i need to eat more, cuz im losing more weight. aw well, i could have worse problems.

damn. mallory needs to get her internet back in b.f.e. iowa and teach me more html useless garbage. i want larger pics on my edit info page, but im too much of a spaz idiot to figure out how to do it. i took some killer photos with my *COOL NEW* camera phone looking all buff. yippy. it's not like anyone really sees them, but that's not the point.

fu*k, i need a haircut monday morning too. the fauxhawk's getting unmanageable.

doulbe fu*k, i need time to finish my human ecology office application. damn. the one weekend i have loads of crap to do, and i won't have time. F#(*)@$#)*#$@.

oh yeah. thanks to pretty much EVERYBODY'S advice, i finally picked up maroon 5's 'songs about jane.' and yes, even though i had it all basically downloaded, it is killer. highly recommended. i found out it's already gone double platinum. but i guess it makes since, cuz ive known about them FOR A YEAR AND A FRIGGEN-HALF. yes, that's right, christmas break first year of college i was all over 'harder to breathe.' but i guess that's no surprise, cuz as EVERYONE knows, i know good music LONG BEFORE IT BECOMES MAINSTREAM AND HITS THE RADIO.

ok. i think im done now. ill leave with a few random thoughs.

*TWO WEEKS TILL COLLEGE FOOTBALL!
*customers are stupid. my biggest pet peeve: when they stand there, like idiots with gobs of clothes and just wait by the fitting rooms. is it that hard to ASK and employee for a damn fitting room instead of looking like a f#))(@#$ retard?
*my brother in law's birthday was thursday. happy birthday mike!!!
*if i hear hoobastank "the reason" one more time on the radio i'm gonna hurl.
*white sox won again tonight. they might be finally finding their groove. only 4 back of the twinkies.
*not only did sara and claire stop in, but my favorite former co-workers popped in tonight. seija!!!! now i get along with all my co-workers, but there's been very few i've really bonded with and gotten along really well. seija was one of the lucky few. it was nice seein her.
*i have a really weird feeling right now. sometimes (actually often) i just sense things. and i get the sense right now something interesting's gonna happen. i don't know what - with school, women, work - but something big's about to happen. i dunno if it's good or bad, but i can just sense something's gonna go down soon.
*now i really wanna see 'harold and kumar go to white castle.' my friends all said it was hilarious.
*jennie finch, us softball player in the olympics, is the hottest thing i have ever seen. seriously. hottest. chick. ever.

mkay. i'm gonna go finish my crunches now and *try* and get some shut eye. till tomorrow night most likely....
*peace*

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[14 Jun 2004|07:27pm]
[ mood | hot ]

why is my internet so slow today?


....feelin good, feelin great. a good day today, which i severely needed. i found out i had all a's (ignoring that one AB in abnormal psych that's wickedly curved) and made the dean's honors list at uw. so go me.
anyway, i was in the mall today saying hi to my old homies at my old job, the buckle. when all of a sudden someone steps out of the dressing room and says "hi chris." well i'll be damned. it's my ex-girlfriend. the ho one. needless to say, i was rather surprised. but since (time for me to be a complete arrogent jerk) i am looking good lately i was kinda happy to see her in an odd way. i've put on muscle since i'd last seen her. plus, i'm really tan now, so i was in a good mood. plus, my old co-workers made me the center of attention. besides all that, i didn't think my ex looked that good. definately went downhill. well, i guess that's what venerial diseases can do to you. (okay, that was a little low, but come on. she's obsessed with c*ck.) so i was feeling damn good about the rest of the day.

but one thing will ruin it. i have to work at american eagle... tonight. freaking 8 p.m. to 2:30 in the morning. wtf??? then i need to go lift and work out at the princeton club. ugh. but hey, i have tomorrow off and will do nothing but relax and take it easy. *ahhh sigh ahhh*

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[01 Jun 2004|11:35am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

so apparantly this is just becoming my space to vent. today's issue: work (what a surpsrise). so deanna, the boss, calls me and bitches at me. and lemme say, it wasn't pretty.
long story short....they originally messed up my schedule. the computer ran out of ink and didn't print my (what luck) schedule, so they hand wrote it. it said i worked sunday and had off monday, which was fine. but then i checked the master schedule, and that they had written i had off sunday and work monday, basically flip-flopping the two shifts. so i asked d, and she said the hand written schedule was right, but asked if i wanted to come in on monday, basically adding a shift. i said well that's ok, but let me know if they really need me to. that was either thursday or friday.
next thing i know, it's sunday and i'm at work. i ask tim to check the schedule to see if i still needed to come into work monday. he checks the schedule and says "no, you're not written on here." so i then figured they crossed me off or didn't need me. it didn't help i had plans yesterday. so monday comes, and i figure if i was put on the scheudle they would have called me yesterday telling me to come in. but nope, monday came and went and nothing from american eagle. so i didn't think too much of it. and yet today i get a phone call from deanna. apparantly, it was just between us two and she didn't get time to write me on the schedule. i understand where she's coming from, and i'm sorry, but it was just a big misunderstanding. now she (and apparantly josh, even though he didn't know about this till this morning at their manager meeting) is pissed, and im most likely gonna get bithced at tomorrow too. i love my job, i really do, but this just kind of irritated me. now *i* will have to take all of the blame, and i don't think that's right.

mallory's right, i'm becoming *sooo* emo.

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